The day I felt like shit

I guess the only reason stopping me from blogging is the realization of gaming, downloading series and playing sims is way more fun then typing out these little tiny words on my computer screen.

And the thought of thinking of what to write! Fuh! How tough is that!

Well, another reason which I kind of found out last Sunday during the horrible hike was that I lost the motivation that I use to have, it’s like the whole world gave up on me so it’s time to do the same – giving up on the whole world too.

Here’s what happened last Sunday.

Right, everyone with their sane mind or what not would know that I’m the worst person in sports or what so ever, not proud of it, but yes I’m the worst. Not to mention definitely the worst person to BRING along to a hike/ forest trekking especially a place like bukit hartamas in Cheras. (Never heard of that place? Don’t worry me neither till Sunday).

OK, so one day I was happily playing my FB games and JC asked me to hang out with his friends going trekking with them because “everyone wants to hang out together and it’s gonna be fun”. Because I know myself so well, I said no and didn’t want to go and embarrass myself in front of his camper/ scout friends because I’m so lousy in sports and did I even mention that the word STAMINA doesn’t even exist in my life dictionary?

Oh Well. Then I don’t remember what happened but I agreed to join, but I sure remember something about “WE WILL ALL GO SLOW and WAIT UP FOR OUR GFs” kinda thing.

But, they didn’t.

Well, last month I went trekking with JC’s parents too in Bukit Gasing, yea it was tough but I manage to finish it and came home feeling proud and happy and I was so looking forward to go again. So I thought, oh well, how tough can this new Bukit be, right? I’m sure I can do just fine. WRONG!

It wasn’t just another Bukit, it was THE BUKIT. The steps was soo steep is right on your face sort of thing and almost the whole journey was uphill uphill and guess what, MORE uphill.

Oh cut the crap, I was obviously the last because I suck at sports and stuff, and I was so mad that his so called FRIENDS so promised to wait up just disappeared. Like, literally. I climbed so hard with all my freaking energy and looked up, they’re not there! Wow, thanks guys and girls, I’m so happy you all “WAITED UP” for me.

Well, obviously I felt like shit and so embarrassed because I’m so lousy and all, and the best part, was all the climbing for about 4 hours, we ended up at a waterfall that is so pathetic, I’m serious it’s so small it won’t event fit my brother. Then another 3 hours back to land when its pouring out there! The rain was so heavy and the thunder was so loud! OMG I was freaking scare ok I wanted to die.

That was when I realized I didn’t have any motivation to move on anymore. As in, I didn’t want to continue climbing up that 45 degrees steep Bukit and there’s no reason for me to keep going anymore, which, coincidently is the exactly the same I felt about life.

I studied so hard thinking that I can get that loan from my uncle and head to UK and start an awesome life as a journalist and now, poof, all my dream flushed down the smelly toilet bowl. I haven’t started looking for a job, because I didn’t think it would bring me anywhere, because I don’t know if I can ever go where I wanted anymore. Sigh.

Oh well, I guess hiking/ trekking would be more fun if you actually go with a bunch of real friends and not those who ditches you because you’re slow but they already know because you’ve informed them like so much earlier. I’m still angry thinking of it now, and guess what, I’m never gonna forget the day they made me felt like shit, okay.

Update 101

This blog is not dead, yet.
I'm just too tired and my whole body is aching from yesterday's hike.
Will update soon. =)

This is to the most awesome girl on earth.

Why do I love you?

• I love you because you've been tru all the ups and downs with me for this seven years. You were always there.
• I love you because you're an amazing designer and I've never met anyone so passionate with what they do
• I love you because we use to skip class to CC and spend hours there. (ok it doesnt relate but it's awesome memory)
• I love you because we can laugh together for the simplest thing until we get stomach ache
• I love you because you know me the best and always gives the best advices.
• I love you because you're not afraid to tell the truth
• I love you because you're my best friend, sister, and family.
  

7 reasons for seven awesome years

Happy 20th birthday, girl.

I don't care if I look like a tranny in this make up, I still put it up because I think you look awesome. =)

Since form one, our friendship has met different challenges, from families to friends to boyfriends, and yet I'm sure that our friendship remains strong and awesome. It's your birthday today, and yet I couldn't spend much time with you. I feel super bad, but long as you have fun today, it doesn't matter if I weren't there by your side cheering for you because you know that I'm always here. =D

Oh well. Happy birthday to you. =)

Oh its sounds so emo, but I thought since we're 20 now, the post should've sound more "mature". hmmmm...

Oh where oh where~~

I'm so serious I have no idea what has happened to me. Must be the stress coming in from both studies and family. I'm going crazy, oh I must be.
I have exam tmr in bout 8 hours and I just came back from watching "Imagine That" and now I',m blogging? OMG?!!!
Did I also mentioned that I haven't started studying at all?

Oh I must be crazy... What the heck happened to nerdy Shing that wants to go UK with all the journalist dream? ARGH!

Study study study... oh no more RC omg I'm so hook to the computer these days.


Btw, just a quick preview, to those who follow my blog for relationship advices and etc, my upcoming post is gonna be about the Chinese Malay relationship. It's kinda like a sequel to it. So hang in there guys and girls! =)

Now, where's that Media relation notes?

dot dot dot.

Must. Start. Studying. for. Tuesday's exam.

*wish i can just stop procrastinating and start studying! someone smack me in the face pls.*

things i cannot tahan.

Just have the urge to post something like this. so here goes.

Things I cannot tahan

1. feet. I cannot look at other people's bare feet because I find them really really horrifying, especially those really dry and wrinkled ones.

2. people breaking promises. Seriously I don't understand one's mentality of making a promise and then not doing it, might as well not promising at the first place, right?

3. people that complains they have no money then the next thing you know they shows up with a brand new shirt from some branded shop. well, then why complain you have no money at the first place?

4. repeating myself too much. It's really annoying.

5. people that don't wear fitting shoes, or shoes that's too small for their feet. Seriously. either these people are living in denial or they desperately need a new pair of shoes or they're just blind for not realising how ugly it looks when their toes are sticking out. *gross*

6. people making weird noises in public area. Noises as in sounds that you make when you suck in between your teeth, and etc. I remember once being in the LRT and this man (or was it a woman)was making that weird noise and he/she was standing right next to me. I had to shift place cuz it was too irritating.

7. people that don't take things seriously.

8. people who takes things too seriously.

9. people who don't learn. when we tell you that sentence has grammatical error, thank us and improve, or simply us and walk away. don't say that u like pronouncing it wrongly. shows that your stupid.

10. dirty hair. I don't know why I just get disgusted. then again, who won't?

11. Events invites on facebook about ladies night, martiny night, blue night, pink night, your underwear night. I don't club. thank you.

12. people who thinks that they can sing. but they can't.

13. all the notifications on my facebook homepage about the quizes you take. how hot are you, how smart are you, how horny are you, who do you look like, where do you live, when do you die. please. go to a fortune teller. more accurate and less irritating.

14. people answering phones in the cinema like their at home. c'mon, where's your manners man? other people want to watch the movie too.

15. idiots who kick people's chair in the cinema, or shake their legs behind your seat (which u can feel everything). dude, this is not the coffee shop. and go kick something else not my seat.

16. people who answer a question with another question. example. tmr you what time your class? "why?" Just answer me la. "you tell me first la" It's for the event. "what's with the event?".... -.-

so what's your list of things you cannot tahan?