ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY

So angry now. And feel so bad at the same time.
Ish i feel like banging my head on the wall and say : "DIE!!! you stupid girl!!! DIE!!!"
How can this two feeling exist at the same time? its driving me nuts!!!
Sorry my dearest Dylla, Eva, Alexandra, and Mahasin. I dint purposely not come for shooting..
Im so so so sorry!!!
I thought my dad would understand. I planned to leave at 2 plus right after lunch, but end up my dad went dissappeared. Im so so sorry my dear frens.
Now i feel so bad, i feel so useless again. =(

im sorry yea, my post's abit too emo lately...
=(

Im sorry

Today is a bad day.
Its all my fault.

Im sorry Dad, for letting you wait for me in front of pyramid.
Im a lousy daughter.
Im sorry Kenneth for being such a bitch today.
Im a lousy friend.
Im sorry JC for making you send us to pyramid.
Im a lousy person.
Im sorry Pam for not giving my best for the play.
Im a lousy actress.
Im sorry Ms Sue for handing up such a crappy essay.
Im a lousy student.
Im sorry Eva for not being able to go for the shoot.
Im a lousy team member.
Im sorry Jess for not helping out for the workshop.
Im a lousy S.A
Im sorry SherRee for not being able to help you on perpective drawing.
Im a lousy best fren.

Im sorry to everyone that is reading this for my emo-ness.
Im a lousy blogger.

Sorry.

Extreme Multi-tasker

Here I am again.

blogging.

Im doing my assignment in the library, "rushing" is a better word for this i guess..

Today is the due date ad. and all thanx to my all-time-briiliant-brain-which-function-so-awesomely-well... i forgot today is suppose to be the due date, till yesterday. OMG!! rush rush rush..

i realise i tend to blog more when i am stressed, happy, or BUSY!!!

the busier I am.. the more I blog..

hahaha....

blog blog blog.

Im multitasking again..

Im doing my assignment, while reading my friends blog, and checking out (almost)everyone's friendster, facebooking... and now.... BLOGGING!!!

wah Im impressed by myself too..

haha

Shing = extreme multi-tasker.. *claps*

=)

Crappy Post

I miss baking so so much...

i wana bake.. but i got too lazy to go to the shop adn buy the muffin cups..

haha... anywan wana help me buy ar? i malas la.. u buy for me.. then i bake for u?

haha... yea this post is crap, cuz ppl chasing me for update.. haha

18th of March

This post is for you NS people, and u too fina. =)

One year ago, I step foot on a strange ground, where there are more than the 3 races, and life was way simpler than it is now. This place changed my life, my thinking and showed me the truth.

This place, was a nightmare for some people, espeacially those who did not know about the beauty of nature, and those people that don't know how to have fun.

This place, is call Kem Bumimas, Sibu, Sarawak. Most of you definately remember this sign. A sign board where we all refuse to see when we need to go back to the camp from our favourite outing.

The moment we arrived, the graveyard behind the dorm gaves us all a chill, the place looked creepy, and the weather was really warm.

I met my first roommate then, Dayah. We walked into dorm Langsat, dragging the heavy luggage we brought from our home. There, i knew my 1st fren from Sarawak, this briiliant girl is called Tiong Fui Ping, from a small town in Sarawak - Sarikei.

Our 1st activity, if im not mistaken, was to create our own kompeni flag and present it in a week time. I was leading the group then, and from there i got close to more people, like Amir, Zul, Fina, Ein, etc...

Then we all started to have a whole lots of activity, which occupied my mind through out the time. Then i got close to this group of briliant people due to the 9 days holiday for good friday, easther, and ching meng. These people is Fina, Ein, Yan, Dayah, Hanis, Jess and edah. And we call ourselves the "Ganster", because we were like the big sister in our beloved dorm langsat, and the JL's actually calls us gangsters, which did at first create an awkward time between us and the JLs.

There were alot of up and downs in our NS life, but life was way more simpler back then, we just need to follow the schedule and the rules (which we love breaking them). Everything that happened running tru my mind as if they happened only yesterday.

The time when we all crawl up tgt and shiver because there was only 9 of us in the dorm, talking about ghost stories, and how Hanis shivers when we talked about "pau suri". The time when we all sit by the ironing place, making ourselves fat by eating maggi and drinking nestum. We all love maggi tomyam and asam laksa. The time when we sang together with ein's voice being the loudest. The time Yan jump around the dorm holding her "cute" little hairclip. How every night i need jess to company me to the toilet. those were the best time in the room.

dear frens, remember the huge wall for kembara halangan where i dont dare to jump down from? its call tangga kambing... I still rmbr how Fina and Hanis stood by me and cheered for me while the rest left me behind, and i rmbr how Cikgu Yusof let me step on his shoulder to come down, then i got teased forever for that. I remembered that feeling when i was the only chinese representing my kompeni going for the Tali Tinggi, that feeling when i jump down, i will never forget, the feeling when all the cikgu said i've grow up, that was the best time. I finally overcome my fear for drains. Thanx to my dearest frens and JLs...

I can hardly forget our meal time, sitting at our favourite table, 2nd row from the front, right behind the JLs table. Eventho we dont mind sharing the table with the others, but they always leave the table when we put our plates there. Then we always got misunderstood by the rest saying that we are racist and me and jessie was a traitor of our race/religion. Then how we always have our meals with abah joining us chit chating, and also cikgu "telor" that love to talk about telur...

Sorry my dearest fren, but I cant talk much anymore, but i will always remember those wonderful moments, wiht our favourite JLs, and all our great friends.

Abah, Komandan, daddy, baba ali, cikgu dan, cikgu iskandar, cikgu ju, cikgu gee, cikgu ein, cikgu aya, cikgu yusof, ustazah, ustad, cikgu "prist", cikgu polis, cikgu kayak, cikgu yue, cikgu menti, cikgu lang, cikgu maslyn, cikgu norma and lots more where i can't really name all of them.

Fina, ein, hanis, jess, yan, edah, dayah, ping, suh ping with her jiatuh jiatuh, jevelyn, evelyn, queen, zul, gang serkup, mas, ju, ira, aslam, purple girl (which we finally ok ngan her), leno, amir, nadz, adib, redzuan, teck, ana, ammar charlie, august, james, joanna the sweet girl, lum, linda the girl yg blackmailed me, mizi, zakwan and lots more.

Botak boy...

Two days of tiredness (edu fair), fuh.. finally i can start blogging again..
Just came home from education fair, and i cant wait to share this with u guys...

When i was on my way down to the bridge tht links to ktm at mid valley, i heard this man scolding a kid, saying ;"next time i dowan bring u gaigai ad..."
and i tot it was funny cuz i love it when parents say tht to kids cuz it sound so cute, dont u think?
So out of curiousity, I turned back and saw a old man (shud be granpa i think), was holding a little boy that look sooo innocent and he's botak.. so cute rite? yea i know.. haha..
so u know la, when we see little kid we'll tend to smile at them cuz their so adorable..
so yea la, i looked at him and smile politely.. then i turn back in front la..
Then i heard the old man say.. "see, people laugh at u ad.."
I tot he was the joking joking way..playing with the little boy... but when i looked back..

I was shocked..

i saw the old man kicking that poor little boy, and holding his fist, like wana punch him lidat..
i wanted to go in front there already and stop the old man, but then i scare i yg kene whack.. hehe...
wad to do ler... haih..
then? then i went off la.. haiyo..
but kesian that boy la, just bcuz i smiled at him cuz i think he's cute,then he kene kick by his granpa...
=(

sorry little botak boi...
*pats head*

HUNGRY....

Ms Rubini: "the art of apology....." *my thoughts start wandering.*

Im in class now...

Well, u people must be asking why am i blogging when i suppose to concentrate...

I cant concentrate...okay? im starving here...

im hungry... can i got eat now pls ms Rubini? pweeese...

can u see my hungry face?

When I Die...

Im feeling extremely bored, so i came up with this post.. =)


When i die...

I want to be dress in my favorite black dress so i look pretty and hot
I want to wear my favorite high heels so i dont look so short in the coffin.
I want to have make-ups on so i dont look pale and dead, but just light makeups cuz heavy make- up is not my thing.
I want to have my favorite necklace and acessories on so it matchs my dress and heels.
I want my nails to be clean and nice without nail polish, bcuz they say when u die nail polish wont come off.
I want my hair to be long and nicely comb so that I wont look like some scary ghost in the movie.
I want to wear my contact lens so i can see without my glasses.



When i die...

I want all my friends that come to "visit" me wear white, because they cant wear red and i dont like black bcuz it look so dead for funerals.
I want all my family members to wear blue so that i can see them even without my glasses on.
I want all my friends bring me a flower bcuz it look nicer than joysticks and i never got flower before
I want all my friends not to put make up so that i look prettier than them for one last time.
I want all my friends to get a muffin each instead of some lousy candy so that they can remember me baking for them.
I want my friends to sponsor a little bit of money with any amount bcuz funerals are expensive.



When i die...

I dont want any of them to cry bcuz it'll make me sad
I dont want them to laugh either bcuz i will feel like they dont miss me...
I dont want people to see me before I am nicely dress and make-up



When i die...
I want to be cremated bcuz I dont want to be eaten by the worms and ants.
I want my ashes to be burried bcuz i dowan to stay at a little corner where no one notice me.
I want to be burried with my heels.
but if i cant have a place to be burried bcuz the land is too expensive for my parents to pay then I want my ashes to be place at a temple so i am closer to Buddha.



When i die...
I want Sherree to have anything from my room that she likes
I want all my cloths and books donated to the orphanage
I want all my money given to my dad.
I want my room to stay as it is bcuz i love my room
I want all my organ donated bcuz i am a donor.

If i cant get any of those above, at least grant me the last, so more people can live.

*im not commiting suicide so dont worry my friends*

Save me...

Im bored. dead bored. T_________________________________T

Got no class today so Im stuck at home doing nth... facebook is sooo boring now because i got bored with all the application ad.

Someone shud start some extremely-superb-unbelievable-most creatively-amazingly-wonderful app that i can never get bored with.. but tht is not possible cuz i get bored with stuffs soooooooooooo fast.... T___________________T

oh shing oh shing....why la im lidat? why? why?why? (drama again *roll eyes*)

Gosh... i mish baking.... bake bake bake.... muffin!! cheeeeese cake!!! butter cooookiess!!! choc chip cookiessss... choc cake!!! ARRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BAKE BAKE BAKE......

IM BORED!!! save me... =(

and i want meatballs.... T__T and pizza, and sushi, and... and... and.....

T__________________________T

IM BORED!!!

Mcd.I m Lovin' it

I posted this post bcuz got request from people asking me to update..
wah.... got people chasing me for update ler.. =)
haha.. glamour ad.. muahahaha...

so dylla, here is the update u wan.

and JONATHAN, there, more Dylla's picture.. haha...

haha, the other day i went to Mcd with my two dear fren Dylla and Eva..

=)

and we makan there, chit chat, cam whore (as usual)....

Here's the story...

DYLLA: eyh, faster drink finsh, dont let Eva drink...

SHING: hahaha... EVA: yer, so bad you two... must drink more than u two.. SHING: No, cannot give u..

DYLLA: IT'S OURS!!!

EVA: i dont care....

DYLLA: ahhhhhhh..EVA: yes... i got it...

DYLLA: NO, me 1st... hahaha..mine mine mine..
SHING: NO, it's mine... cant u see my hand is there 1st?

EVA: nvm then, i'll have fries.... muahahahDYLLA: what ever la Eva, haha.. i pon ader fries jugak... haha

SHING: now i have the drink all to myself... but.. but.. i nak fries la now... =(

EVA: good good, now i have the whole thing.. must finish it before they realise.. hahahah EVA: DRINK DRINK DRINK!!!
EVA: oh noo... i think i drank too much... oooo my little tummy..

EVA: oh, the pain....

THE END

hahaha..

btw, this story is totally made up by me.... hahaha....

*pray* hope Eva dont see this...

muahaha...

painful truth

Today i was told a painful truth.
I pretended as if i dont care., but in my heart i was freaking out.

This morning dad told me that my mum is going to lose her job, because her company is being take over by some other company.
"Why can't the new boss keep her then? since she worked there for so long." i asked my dad. He said cuz the boss already have his own crew.
*sigh* guess the adult world is really that complicated.

Then my dad said to me, : "U better go do your PTPTN thing soon, and hand in up before its too late, cuz if Ur mum not working d, and i got no job, who is going to pay for Ur studies?"

If you don't already know, my dad is a contractor, works for people to renovate house, and he don't get a job everyday, it depends if there's anyone that needed him to renovate their house.
how i envy those who their dad work as business man or work for some big company, cuz they never need to worry about money. =(
My mum is the one that is so call supporting the house, and her wonderful Honda civic. She was so proud of it, and says that she is the ONLY one working... but my dad is the wan paying for everything else like maintenance, food, my pocket money, internet, petrol, and every little things u can think of. But at least mum was there for back up, in case dad really runs out of cash, at least someone can support the family.
Now, even mum is going to lose her job, I felt so scare. I am so afraid.
Before this when dad told me about mum losing her job, I was still laughing and said it will never happen. But today, dad told me again in such serious manner, and i saw him uses all the new 5 dollars notes tht we use for angpaus for as my pocket money, i knew tht he wasn't joking this time. Dad even asked me to start looking for job, just in case.

That moment i felt like crying.

The senario kept playing in my mind, where i have no money to study, and im being barred from entering classes. I'm so so scare.
i don't mind not having my pair of new jeans and that pair of heels that i've been wanting to buy, i don't mind not going out from this day onwards, i don't mind not getting pocket money every week, i don't mind not eating again everyday breaktime.
I really don't mind, but I am so afraid, I'm so scare that i won't be able to continue my studies...
I love what im doing now... i really do...

Monster Unleashed

Fine. Maybe not MONSTER... (monster sounds so ganas lar). Beast will be a better word for this.

I wonder if any of u remember one of my previous blog which is about how much i was eating (dont remember then go check la, and act like u do =p ) ...

That eating-like-pompuan-gila-punya-shing was locked up and hidden (gaining weight la haiyo, must jaga ma T__T) till this very day..

Let the story begin.

Today, i went for this audition for this tv program with a beautiful girl name dylla (da la jangan prasan la) at Mutiara Damansara, then we went to IKEA - the home for furnitures (iklan percuma utk ikea, haha) for lunch..

mmmmmm... LUNCH!!! *salivates* *gulp*

i had 10 meatballs!!! woohoo.. and of cuz the fries that comes with it la..duh!!

bukan mcm SOMEBODY... haha.. 5 meatballs pon xhabiskan the fries.. haha.. ey DYLLA see im soo good x letak nama u so org lain semwa xtau... *wink* =p

owh owh owh.. continue story..

then i had IKEA's ice cream... jealous x? hehe...

then i bought the curry puff, but before i reach home i felt hungry again, but i good girl ma, so i tahan la dint eat till i go home..

then i had TWO.. haha..

then xsampai an hour, i go mamak with family and had my 2nd favourite breakfast which is called Thosai, u know u know? =p altho dinner time but still can have fav breakfast wan ok..

wah.. bloated.. and satisfied.. muahaha

guess i just eat alot when i have bad mood.. *sigh* better stop this bad habit or not im gona spend more on food (now oso spend damn alot d. T___T)

but well, now my good mood is back again, thanx to my dono-how-many-hours-sleep last night from 7pm to 9 a.m. something this morning...and the wonderful IKEA meatballs and fries and the very sedap ice cream and the pedas pedas curry puff, dan oso itu slrpppp punya thosai.. wah.. good mood ad..ok la.. and oso my itu ciantik (the way most chinese aunty pronouce cantik) punya kawan..DYLLA.. thanx babe.. =)

im officially fine now.. =) but i think my stomach not that fine la..

macam mau pegi tandas.. aduh... *pegang-ing my stomach*

ok.. brb.. go release submarines 1st.. (yer sound so gross).. =p

what the hell.. i tries to put more space to make my blog look neater but somehow it always comes out like this.. what the hell...

and i wanted to say something else, but i dont remember what.. so.. that's all la.

hmmm...

yer... why her ice cream look nicer wan?

okla... mine looks better now.. =p