What did i do?

Was it my fault?
What did I do? You tell me.
I want the truth; it’s unfair for me to be treated like this.
Why don’t you just tell me what did I do till it annoys you all so much?
Am I that bad? I can’t stop thinking about this.
Have you guys ever thought from my side? Try to put yourselves in my shoe, and then you’ll know how I’m feeling now. How would you feel if the people you thought your friends just treat you coldly? How would you feel if people just started to boycott you for no reason? What if all this happen to you instead? How would you feel?
If I'm really that bad, if you really think I don’t fit in to your group, why don’t you just tell me straight to my face?

all about love

The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance,
far enough to allow the other person to grow,
but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.
To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his/her own happiness without expecting him/her to come back.
Letting go is not just setting the other person free,
but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that keep in your heart.
Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith,
and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it.
You may find peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return.
But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow.

We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.
You don't have to forget someone you love.
What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself.
Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.
Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today,
it means that someone better is coming tomorrow;
If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love.
Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away
the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you.
Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you.
And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime

i just wana be happy

I don’t like arguments. Why can’t we just have a peaceful life? I mean we basically live together.
You like to use money as an issue to shut me up. So what if my dad can’t afford to pay my bills? So what if I have to use your money to continue my studies? That is not an excuse for you to insult me or hurt my feelings.
If there is a chance, I won’t even ask you for money, I never did.
I never asked you to pay my for college fees, I won’t. If you think my study is nothing important, then you can just stop paying for it. You can even throw me out of the house and leave me to die on the street.
But let me tell you, you can’t kill me that easy. I’ll find a way to survive. And I will return.
I love studying, and I love to learn. But if I have to, I will stop everything now, roll up my sleeves and start working.
Like I said, you can’t kill me that easy.
All I hope for is that we can live happily like a family, a normal wan.
Every night I pray to god that I can have a better life, a better family, a better you. But I never did ask him to replace you, because I love you. Like everyone else.
How I hope that sometimes you can be like everyone else.
I just want to be happy.
If you realise, this is the 1st argument we had after since I came back.
I didn’t want to argue, I hate it, but I can’t stand it anymore. Your words are hurting me more than ever. I thought if I just forget it I can stop myself from talking back, I tried, but I failed. You actions to me is like sprinkling salt on a bleeding wound. It hurts.
I don’t want much. I just want to be happy. I don’t want your money either.
I just want to say. I don’t blame you. And…
I love you, Mum.